Pain.

Nowadays, I feel so lazy to type out a post, even if it's to describe the day itself, cos usually I'll blog about other days too. I dunno why I dunno why I dunno why. Haha okay that sounded damn retarded I know. I'm retarded I'm retarded I'm retarded. ONLY FOR TDAY.

I need to sleep my time away, if thats the only cure.

Alrights I shall put up some lyrics of a nice song instead! =)

Fallen - Sarah McLachlan


Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so


We all begin with good intent
When love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our back the burdens time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I have held so dear


Heaven bend to take my hand
I've nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one misstep one slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

Gotta go back to school on Saturday again. BOOOOO.

Famous last words.

The Postal Service - Such great heights

I am thinking it's a sign
that the freckles in our eyes
are mirror images
and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned.
And I have to speculate
that God Himself did make
us into corresponding shapes
like puzzle pieces from the clay.

And true it may seem like a stretch
but it's thoughts like this that catch
my troubled head when you're away
and when I am missing you to death.

And when you are out there on the road
for several weeks of shows
and when you scan the radio
I hope this song will guide you home.

they will see us waving from such great heights
"come down now" they'll say
but everything looks perfect from far away
"come down now" but we'll stay

I tried my best to leave
this all on your machine
but the persistent beat
it sounded thin upon the sending.

and that frankly will not fly
you'll hear the shrillest highs
and lowest lows with the windows down
and this is guiding you home.

they will see us waving from such great heights
"come down now" they'll say
but everything looks perfect from far away
"come down now" but we'll stay (x3)


Loveeee this song. :) My new hot favourite for the moment! Its addictive, and it gets me going each time. Heh O level results were disappointing, but glad I'm over it =) Still in Ac, so I gotta be a muggertard to survive there :l Oh wells there's always sunshine after the rain :)

Oh ya, HAPPY VALENTINES TO YA'LL! <3

Sadly speaking of which we spent it in school the whole day, having classes and training then after. But the atmosphere in school's good, :) with all the hearts around plus dedications. Yay I've got presents! =D Hehe brownies, cookies, chocolates and sweets to keep me awake during lessons. Lol training was alright, rained so we did some steps and skipping. Tryouts supposedly on the day itself. Boy was it wet! Alot of people kept falling! Okay la actually only like Me Ethel and Amanda only. Ahah but Amanda's fall was H I L A R I O U S. Hahaha joke of the century. I keep laughing to myself whenever I repeat the scene in my head. Haha she damn joker la. Kah came to join us after that then we went for dinner! :)

New Year's the next big thing! Celebrations tmr! Go or not to go? Hmmm.

Tday's one of the most emo days in school luh. Firstly, the weather. One minute so hot and the weather raining its ass off. So moody. Gastric in the morning. No money also, play play then now I owe people even more money. Secondly, the ridiculous results of the netball tryouts. Like wth, I really feel that the team shld also consists of SHORT people too right. No use having all tall but not good players, not intending to offend anyone but this is just how everyone thinks too, no? Dumb dumb dumb dumb DUMB. Simply dumb.

I'm lazy to blog further.





Just some random thoughts. REALLY RANDOM.
Sorry if I'm selfish, but I tried already.
Sorry if you're hurt, I'm too tired to feel for you anymore.

You have stolen my heart.

What a busy busy busy week now and ahead.

Actually coming to think of it, I havent really gotten use to the lifestyle of a JC yet. Like I still fall asleep during lectures cos well the place somewhat isn't conducive enough for me. :l Its pretty bad I know but oh wells. I'll do smthg bout it. Oh and we got into trouble tday for ponning Lit Lecture, congrats to me and Cel. Dunno how to face it man.

X country tday! It wasn't as good as I thought it would be cos of the freaking sun! ): I feel burnt laaaaaa. Had classes in the morning first though. Headed to Turf City to run. Omfg the guys are damn fast! Like they run 1km more than us but the first guy come back at around the same timing as the first girl. :l Hah I ran with Cel and Vicky, the slope was SAI! My legs were breaking luh. But overall it wasnt that bad, thought the route would be much longer though. After that we went to drink ALOT of milo haha. Nat beat me she drank 10 cups lol. Headed down to eat ice cream then home!

Fang left on Monday. ): Overseas to study, went to send her off at the airport after training. Had farewell at her hse on Sunday, it was good :D Man I'll really miss her. Her crap and jokes, the way she makes fun of ppl haha. Its okay la she'll come back soon enough! (: Takecare alright Fang!

My next biggest worry: FRIDAY! The day where I choose either heaven or hell. Seriously mentioning the word 'Friday' already freaks me out bad enough ): No way am I gona go school first before heading to IJ. We'll meet up first then we'll head down tgt. Heh.

Might not go to school again tmr. If so its like the 3rd time I'm ponning Thursdays in every week! Haha not obvious only. But Thursdays are really nothing much, the decision depends on Cel. Lol.

=)

Thanks sweets for the cheer up! (:
You know who you are =)
*huggs*

Next weeeeek!

U missed a phone call named unknown one night, and u call all possible people u can guess. Little did I expect that it was u. Then u start with all the bullshit and mentioning the past, BLAH. Dont u know that u've spoiled my whole day, literally? I admit times werent really good when u left, but it was way better ever since u starting this nonense. All u left was a msg, is it fair? To keep me in suspense for so long, wondering why this and why that. What did I do? What were u thinking? I really cldnt make the choice for u, it really affects ur life u know. If that was what u're angry about, what can I say? U didnt give me a chance to explain, u just left like that. TOLD YOU I HATE BEING LEFT HANGING THERE. I'm so tired of this, so please dont call me anymore. I cant take it, too much have been done. Sorry, go start ur life with someone new.

My Boo, we used to sing. Now not.

I hate it when people say smthg but yet they do another thing. If you say no, then dont do it. Especially when you know you're so prone when it comes to this issue. Sometimes I really dont know whether its hate or disappointment. I always say no, but it never works the moment I see you. All in all, I know I must reach my final conclusion, and I know I can do it.